I want to be straight!!!!?

im 13 years old and i am atracted to men. im not christan so dont give me the bible talk. I'm mentaly atracted to women but sexualy to men, more like bi. i want to be straight so bad please dont tell me to take myself for who i am because i cant it would tare me appart to know that i would grow up as a gay man. i dont mean to be rude to gay people but i just want to be straight please someone tell me help me i cant live my life being a gay man i want to be straight so bad what do i do?